This is dedicated to all those who live under the radar! Hello!
You’re in very good company (I think) and there’s many more of us than you’d first guess.
By the way, I completely understand your position. Just because you can spot any number of outpoints and departures from LRH intention in the present Church of Scientology doesn’t mean the people you’re living with, your family, work comm lines and friends (probably all or mostly Scientologists) can see the same things. Most of them can’t or won’t see what you can. And it may stay that way until we’ve made a safer environment outside the Church of Scientology than it appears to be inside. A few of your connections will even turn on you if you voice your concerns with the church too loudly.
In my view it is not cowardice to avoid confronting your local org (and therefore HCO, DSA, OSA, CMO, RTC.) Until you’re ready; it can be the best course of action.
So feel free to ignore any bull-bait designed to get you to make a big splash by ‘outing’ yourself too early. Others may feel made ‘right’ by your action, but you’re likely to end up splashed across the pavement. Of course if you want to be dramatic, go right ahead and I’ll salute you too. But most of us need to re-organize our lives first, and I want to help you with that.
I recommend reading and applying HCO PL 12 Jan 73, PR Series 19, The Safe Point (Management Series Vol 3, p89.) If you don’t have the book you can find the reference online by searching on Google. (Any reference you need is virtually there!)
LRH says in this reference:
“It is necessary of course to have a safe place to get into, from which one can in safety speak up. One cannot defend himself in a point that has no defenses.
“Without some consideration of security in the first place any attempt at PR Area Control is folly. Thus the Safe Point takes consideration over Active Defense.” …
“PREPARING THE SAFE POINT
“You cannot operate without a base to operate from. You cannot deliver without somewhere to deliver it. You cannot sell what you cannot deliver.
“The optimum action is to send a PR Area control team to the area you want to operate in, and have it establish PR Area Control first. A new group or Company should be established first as a Safe Point and then as an Operating Point.
“There is a formula here just a hair lower than Non-Existence: “Find a Point from which to put out a Comm Line.” LRH
Probably you’re already applying this to some degree.
Maybe you’re reading this blog under the covers on your IPad and you wipe the history after every session. In which case I suggest a plan to get you from there and into the warm sunshine where you can safely be, think, say and do what you want to, with and in Scientology.
You have to write the plan and follow it. And I am suggesting targets here that have worked for me.
Firstly, I believe your Safe Point begins in home universe, your own mind, your own personal integrity:
“What is true for you is what you have observed yourself. And when you lose that you have lost everything.
“What is personal integrity?
Personal integrity is knowing what you know—
What you know is what you know—
And to have the courage to know and say what you have observed.
And that is integrity
And there is no other integrity.” LRH (Vol VI, p23 “Personal Integrity” Feb 61)
So if you’ve never done it, you should evaluate for yourself what you have observed of the Church of Scientology, in present time.
How’s your life, bridge progress, finances and comm-lines doing in PT? How about friends and family? I know it can get difficult when you try to evaluate farther than your own town and org. Our data about the rest of the Scientology world mostly comes from Int events, and in that area Int is definitely upstat. Every event is bigger, brighter, louder, more graphical and wondrously promising than the last. GAT promised perfect auditing and fast, easy training. Many years ago we were promised Super Power, a standard dictionary, the biography, staff pay you could live off, 10,000 on Solo NOTS or above (and so a handled planet), ads on TV, expansion, a ‘golden age,’ etc, etc. I’ve lost count of the broken promises.
Evaluate those promises against such articles as Debbie Cooks email at: www.scientology-cult.com/debbie-cooks-email.html
Also: Luis Garcia’s “A Letter from Garcia” at: www.scientology-cult.com/declarations-of-independence/430-letter-from-garcia.html
Also: Steve Spargo’s story at: http://spargostory.workpress.com/author/hopefulsteve/
Out of this inspection make your own list of oupoints that you would need corrected before you’d support the Church again. Then whenever staff, public and events try to ‘handle’ you, decide whether anything on your list of outpoints was actually handled (and don’t accept promises – remember the cliché “stats talk, bs walks.”) Such an inspection and list can give you the stable datum you’ll need to finally make your way out of a growing darkness.
Secondly, I strongly suggest you take time out regularly to keep your havingness up. Read theta blogs such as this one, see Mark Shreffler’s blog (the best disseminator the church ever had after LRH), read stories of application of the tech outside the Church, read LRH, etc.
Thirdly, keep in comm with people you can trust. Outflow in safe directions even if it’s just to ‘like’ someone’s blog post. You can’t just inflow if you want to become cause.
Then lastly, and probably most importantly, use HCO PL SAFE POINT to start creating a safe space that you can operate from. This means covering finances, comm-lines and family, as well as anything else needful.
This is a simple plan – one that has worked for me. I hope this is helpful. As I said, you are in good company. You are not alone.