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By Lana M

When you have spent years in the Sea Org (or on staff), you re-enter society with a lot of Scientology knowledge – but with little to no qualifications or experience that make it easy to enter the general work force in society.

Arriving back home in 2005, penniless, with no assets of any kind, and without a resume that can be pulled out, or a network of business or social contacts to rely on – it was a challenge to get a paying job and all the basic necessities of a roof over my head,  etc.

Our past work is not real to the general person – heck, I have tried to explain my 17 years in the SO, and 13 years at the Int base to friends here, and they have real trouble understanding. And how do you explain all the different jobs to someone. And how do you transpose your production record into terms that make sense?

I was resentful for a while, as I felt I had spent 17 years of my adult life dedicated to a 24/7 lifestyle to “Clear the Planet”, and was handed only $500 severance pay on departure, which was not even enough to cover my airfare home.

I have come to see however, in the last 8 years, that my past is actually irrelevant.

It is not about whether I have a tertiary degree, or years of experience in some corporate world (or the public service). And it is not about having worked for 20 years in industry executive positions.

All of this has little impact actually.

The truth is that those of us who have worked in the SO, or on staff, have some fantastic skills that are way better than a tertiary degree in a million years.

With study tech, we are quick students, and able to both learn and apply in a short amount of time.

With auditing tech, we have communication skills that can get us through the stickiest of situations and, through the use of the communication formula, resolve situations and be the person that people look to help sort out issues, problems and even management.

With the Data Series, we can find right whys, and solve problems – in a way that impresses.

With the Management technology (and even with the simple Dev-T Series) we can be incredibly efficient and handle large volumes of work, and set up organisations and make them produce even better.

Further, we have the skill to be able to change direction and get involved in new interests, new industries, new areas – something many are scared to do, or apprehensive about.

And then of course there are the TRs in life, and Word Clearing tech, and Public Relations, and many others.

I was talking to a woman recently and she asked if I regretted working in the inner fraternity (Sea Org) of the Church of Scientology – and did I feel that it had hindered me, now, some 20 years later?  I answered no. I don’t regret anything.

Yes, I went through traumatic experiences, and horrific scenes at the Int base. Yes, I had needed BPC handled on injustices and out-tech.  Yes, there was a decompression of several years, to gain back my certainty on things.

But even still, I gained skills and competence and endurance that have been invaluable. I use my skills every day in work – across many different industries.

And there is actually little significance for me and others, about my past – it is about creating and using these tools into the future that excites me. And we all have these assets.

The past means nothing. It is how a person uses what he knows and can do, to build a future, that is now very real to me.

“The value of past experiences lies in the estimation of the future.

“Past experiences are not nearly as valuable as one might suppose. There is an enormous emphasis on the value of experience. Go to make out an application form for a job and you will find that they are mostly concerned with experience. It is a sort of trap to enslave people, giving their experiences such value. Actually a snapping bright mind and an alert body are worth a hundred thousand years of “experience” behind some dusty desk or counter and an ability to do a “quick study” of a subject is so much more valuable than an education— complete with a hundred A’s— in that subject that one might be led to suppose that maybe “education” as it is laughingly called might possibly be over stressed. Check your history and you will discover that the men whose marble busts adorn the modern halls of learning did not themselves have a formal education: Bacon, Spencer, Voltaire, etc., etc., etc., down the whole list; two or three exceptions prove the rule.

“Not even long study has as much value as people might have wanted you to believe. Your life, from any instant in it, can be free of all past experience and your carbon- oxygen motor would continue to run and you could pick up what you needed to know in a couple of months, even change your name and yet survive handsomely. If you won a Nobel prize last year, that’s tough: you will try madly to keep the experience and be a Nobel prize winner instead of trying to be enthusiastic enough in the tomorrow’s to win another prize.

“The getting is the sport, the having is a defensive action and makes you a platoon pinned down by enemy fire. Thus with experience as with MEST.”  LRH Handbook for Preclears, Third Act.

9 thoughts on “To regret, or not

  1. Great Post Lana. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. We all survived the worst that human beings could dish out and we are stronger for it. Billion-dollar Corporations would be smart to hire us to exec positions for our experience alone. What is left after all of the experience of working in a suppressive environment is tough and dedicated men and women who can never be fooled again, but who will also never give up on his fellow man.

    ML Tom

  2. Great thought.

    If there could be said to be one thing wrong with mankind that would be the individual putting themselves down, underestimating their own personal worth and by comparison to others whom fortune and hard work have rewarded, making less of themselves than they are. True that honest assessment is necessary, and one rarely if ever always wins, but the value of a being is – and this is demonstrable – in their heart, in their goodwill, and their abilities to overcome adversity, keep their integrity, learn and do their best.

    Those men and women we admire most, we admire not so much for the pyramid, or library, or city, or even civilization they built, but for their personal worth and example. And I’ll disagree a bit with LRH here – that character and those personal rules one makes for oneself, the codes one lives by – all those things are built over years, from experience. A good man didn’t just spring up yesterday. What one is looking at there is the accumulation of years of doing the right thing in the right manner. Virtue isn’t ‘born’ – it’s earned.

    We are all valuable – it cannot be otherwise, because there is nobody else but ourselves. And if there is one single lesson from Scn it would be the make better of oneself.

  3. The joke here, Lana, Tom & Nickname, ( & LRH ) is that what I’m reading about, is ALL about ‘experience’…. How else could one measure (evaluate) the success, or otherwise, of any venture or
    activity? How does one become more capable, expert or a ‘master’
    at anything, without, at the very least, some telling experience?

    Both the one manifesting and the one observing, actually have a ton of ‘experience’, if only on the t/track level (the child prodigy, being the classic example.)

    The height of arrogance,( which I see and detest, btw) is the assumption of superiority, or self aggrandized ‘elevation’, of the holier-than-thou’s, wiser-than-thou’s, wealthier-than-thou’s, etc,etc.

    Get this! & get it straight from me, you pompous lot. YOU can learn something ‘valuable’ from the next beggar, you see at the street corner. (the value, in this case, the ‘workability’ of ‘sympathy’ Lol.)

    I do — and I appreciate, celebrate and try my best in trying to share that one life changing ‘attainment’ (- thanks to my friend, Ron:)

    —- Awareness….

    • Not quarreling with anyone here, just a thought this might be a place to say this – LRH wrote different things in different contexts, for different people. Auditors have a tendency to validate whatever someone says, even if it’s close to ridiculous. LRH was and auditor, and he may have been, in context, validating or encouraging people to get into and experience something entirely NEW to all. Prior to Scn, there was no real track record of auditing, so “experience” was non-existent. LRH has said in different context, many times, that an auditor is half training, but half experience, and that there is no real comparison to be made between the two.

      The point I think is worth making is that when reading LRH one must keep a perspective on the time and the place and the purpose of the writing or lecture. LRH is not the immutable word of God – if he were, per Scn, there would be nothing ever written at all – AFAIK. People in various places most authoritatively assert that “LRH SAID …” as if the guy wouldn’t, today, quietly burn the document because times had changed. Or actually, I believe his policy was to cancel outdated procedures. Even more severely, people broadly misinterpret and apply stuff totally out of context. The infamous disconnection policy would not be so infamous if it were applied as intended. For some reason only God knows, that policy – which was probably intended as an obscure last resort for a difficult problem – was apparently seized upon and held up high as a foundation for the operation of the church! And that is just dead wrong.

      I have worked most of my life to understand some things and get them right. I have accomplished that in many areas. In fact, I have succeeded beyond anything I ever dreamt of, and there aren’t that many people who can say that. What I am finding, to my absolute horror (lol), is that one can correctly state “The sky is blue today” and three days later find someone asserting that you said “The sky is green as of three days ago” and further asserting that you are obviously dead wrong because you stupidly neglected to consider that it rains!! In addition, you do not know how to fish. Therefore, no one should ever listen to anything you say, ever again. There are corollaries to the “Simon Bolivar” piece LRH wrote: if you start to get things right, then people come to expect you to be right all the time, and when you get something wrong, everyone notices.

  4. Yes indeed, “Nickname.”.Btw, it would be nice & bold of you to stand in your actual name, without any ‘mask.’ I’m more than certain that you will have some ready, valid justification for me here, though. 😉

    “Identity/s” aside, you make some very astute and erudite posts & contributions to this blog, which i find very informative, thank you.

    The one thing that I consider as valuable, (without question) is the importance of have a solid friendship/s. I consider loyalty in “that” relationship as being superior to “knowledge.”per se.

    Have you ever heard of anyone on their death bed, being grateful for their “knowledge” ????

    “Calvin”

  5. Great post, Lana, I completely agree. Scientology set me up for living with a fabulous set of tools, not the least of which was the Tone Scale. I had the same problem going to interviews for jobs I’d never done before, yet it didn’t take long to fit in and make friends. The simple basics of admin in the OEC made my working life so easy, just like you say.

  6. Shame,blame and regret are case. As a field auditor,I have audited plenty of people who are privileged with money, education and the right experience and they can be as stuck in regret as anyone else. They are still subject to what the reactive mind has to offer-the O/M sequence, somatics, natter,loss, MU phenomena etc.

    For me,working in Scientology was breaking with the old soapbox opera of life into an exciting world of truth and adventure. It has been tough, but nothing a little auditing didn’t fix up. And if I look back there are a ton of people helped by me and many others..And looking into the future, many more to come.Not many out in the “real” world can say that…….

    As Edith Piaf sang “Je ne regret rien”( french for :I regret nothing)

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