By Lana M
Have you had an unhappy experience with Scientology?
Beefed with past services, training, registrars, events, injustices, or something else?
Unhandled bypassed charge? Or just not winning with Scientology?
Getting some distance from restimulating factors within the C of S provides relief (it certainly did for me), but that does not actual sort out the situation for you, personally.
A simple review, correction list, or even just a Chaplain’s interview can deal with unhappy experiences so you can move on and are no longer dragging around mental baggage.
It took me 3 years to destimulate and pull out of a hole that I had crawled into after years at the Scn Int base. And it was unfortunately another 3 years before I figured out how to get myself into the hands of a competent auditor, with a program to clean up the bypassed charge.
I was angry about my past experiences in the C of S but had not spoken of them honestly, with anyone. I was frustrated that the only calls I got from the Church were asking for money or asking probing questions to find out what I was up to, and there seemed to be zero interest in me personally, or in my future (despite the years I had dedicated to the organization). I had resentment that I was still being (unjustly) treated as a suppressive or even just an “out-ethics” person, when I was not. And I was ill (PTS).
My life, outside the C of S, was going really well and I was enjoying being able to create, build and expand across all my dynamics, with no arbitraries. But I had a gnawing knowingness, deep down, that I needed to pull finger and get to the bottom of my bottled-up emotions and feelings.
In 2011 I finally took myself by the scruff of my neck and got myself into session with a Classed auditor. A C/S 53, FPRD correction list and PTS Rundown Correction list later, and my world turned around. I was surprised at how much upset I had on past events, and for the first time in a very long time I was free to say everything in session. (I must note, I was surprised at how many considerations I had priorly had about what I could and could not say in an auditing session — due to past suppression in the C of S. So many things I had not been able to voice in the past, which had effectively prevented me from truly being “in session” for my auditing in previous years.)
My auditing sessions in the field, were outside the control of the C of S and were 100% standard, using LRH correction lists and well-working E-meter. The end result was more case gain (and relief) than I had experienced in more than 17 years of auditing in the Sea Org. At one point I just cried and cried and cried, and at another point, we had to end off because of a floating Tone Arm.
Not only did I find the real “me” again, and help me get back on top of a chronic physical condition, but I also stopped motivating on the C of Snand realised that I had no desire to be in a games condition with an organization that is so off-the-rails. I can just get on with my life and applying with Scientology, and I don’t need anyone’s permission to apply LRH technology, axioms and religious philosophy.
The review auditing also revitalised my purpose to get moving up The Bridge. Since that time I have moved from being a stalled Clear to, several years later, now actively auditing on SOLO NOTs (all done in the field with well trained and experienced tech terminals).
But whether or not you move up The Bridge is not actually the point of this article.
My point is that if you have had unhappy experiences with Scientology — get them sorted out. Don’t shuffle past upsets, confusions, mysteries or out-tech over into the “too hard basket” and hope they will go away some time.
Instead, they fester, or at least sit unresolved and unconfronted.
And as Scientologists, whether new or old, you will be familiar with Axiom 19:
“BRINGING THE STATIC TO VIEW AS-IS ANY CONDITION DEVALUATES THAT CONDITION.”
Even if you are contemplating “taking a break” from Scientology, or possibly leaving it entirely, I would encourage that you find yourself an auditor and get some relief to deal with unhandled mental baggage, so that you can move on, in any direction you are wanting, without unhappy experiences left to haunt you.
There are hundreds of you who read this blog (and other blogs of varying opinions and stances on Scientology) looking for relief and answers. On a daily or weekly basis, we get so many visitors who come and read, watch the commentary, and go through past archives. On any given day there is an average of over 100 different articles on the MS2 blog that are read, in addition to the current new and recent articles – and we hope that our articles are answering some of your many questions, or at least giving you some hope that LRH’s Scientology is alive and well in the field. Even though commentary may be with an average of 10 – 20 people, the actual unique visitors to this blog numbers in the hundreds.
And that is who this article is talking to.
So, to repeat, you may be in good standing, you may have been kicked on your ear. You may have quietly drifted away, hoping no one in the C of S has noticed. You may have been out for decades or may be very much still in, (and reading online on the sly). No matter if you are looking for answers to Scientology related questions, contemplating “taking a break” from Scientology, or possibly leaving it entirely, I would encourage that you find yourself an auditor and get some relief to deal with unhandled mental baggage so that you can move on, in any direction you are wanting, without unhappy experiences left to haunt you.
Unfortunately, hose who do not take responsibilty to get their own scene sorted out, often end up with assumed prejudices, which don’t help them, or those they influence.
“HCOB 17 Feb 1982, PREJUDICE
“A fixed, unqualified opinion, usually based on unhappy experience, substituting itself for reason.”
We can help you find an auditor (there are actually many out here, across many continents). Just drop us a line at firstname.lastname@example.org, and we will refer you to a person in your region/area to contact.
Life is way easier for travel and fun when you are not carrying heavy baggage.