This weekend I have been continuing my FPRD Basic Form with my auditor Chris.
I had a great morning where we blew two intentions that I can honestly do without from now on. Why? Because they are not me. They are not who I am.
Life is a game, no doubt. But trapping people/beings against their will covertly is not a good game — and there are so many ways to do it (trap) …but those ways are not YOU. That stuff is not YOU. Those intentions are not what you were born with.
Those tricks and traps are essentially the definition of Treasonous and it’s a very low condition to operate from. How can you be truly happy while doing that which harms others – covertly. Knowingly, willingly tricking people. It’s not YOU. It’s not ME – but I have done it.
Betrayal after trust indeed.
It has broad application in life to realize suddenly “THUD!!!” that you HAVE been trapping people and playing them all while smiling and keeping them stupid and confused.
You know you’re doing something wrong and you never quite are able to stop yourself – there’s just something about it that you must continue…what a waste of oxygen and theta. It’s evil. It really is.
In session, and after a break, I was able to clearly observe how I have been on a chain of trapping beings since forever. When first asked the question I was, to be really honest, insulted! My thought was: “Moi? Trap beings? Trap people? Who do you think I am? I’m a good boy. Everyone likes me. They do! They all tell me I’m great!”
Yeah exactly!!! Get them to like you then switcheroo everything and trap them and smile. It’s insidious and cruel and not very nice. There are better things to do with one’s time that’s for them sure. This is life-changing stuff.
I feel released of that compulsion and feel so much better, so much calmer, so much saner. There is no figure-figure-figure in my head, no scheming, no desire to scheme or figure out how I can maybe get her to blah blah … there is more a desire to show up in front of a being and communicate instead of using vias and detours. Wow! Laughing on my bed typing this.
FPRD is definitely capable of giving one a new outlook on life because it gets to the basic of why you’re acting insane while seeming quite sane. LMAO!
You slowly re-discover you and get re-acquainted with the goodness that is you on this rundown — does that make sense? It is so simple. You’re just cleaning off the mud all around you.
I am digging myself out of the mud and feel no desire to go back in it and play.
I blew a lot of mass today.
I can play clean now.
FPRD is the hose and water that enables you to clean yourself. How neat is that.
Thanks to Chris and LRH. Truly happy right now. Truly liking myself and the people around me again. smile emoticon